I want to do it all, see it all. There are so many mountains to explore, the ocean is full of wonder. Eighty, or even a hundred years are not enough to dream and explore all the possibilities. It’s interesting to me the conflict in my heart. I want to fly around the globe, hike every trail, watch the sun set from every direction and angle possible.
Yet, I don’t want to leave my quiet comfort zone. The one in which I have a stable job and friends that are basically family. I want to get married, have kids, go on weekly picnics and enjoy the routine Saturday french toast brunches. I want to grow old with my husband evening chats on the back porch, same view, different night, lightning bugs flickering in the distance. I can’t do both can I?
I have so many dreams, I couldn’t possibly complete. I want to shoot for the stars, but I don’t want to miss and land on the moon. I’d rather enjoy the simplicity of not shooting than fall short. Is it fear holding me back or selfishness pulling me forward. God has a plan and I have a million dreams. I hope they line up because I’m stubborn, but God’s better. How can I know that, but not follow it? God’s the ultimate dreamer after all.
1 Corinthians 2:9 (ESV)
But, as it is written, “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him”
I’d love to be a missionary, maybe in Australia or New Zealand, but aren’t there people even within my friends who haven’t been saved? There’s a whole world to reach with the gospel, but that doesn’t mean I have to travel to the other end of the world to find them. Maybe they’re my neighbor or classmate. How can I reach people across the globe if I can’t reach those five feet away from me? It could be more impactful to reach even one who’s in my life than seeking out hundreds who may not even give me an ear.
Mark 10:45 (ESV)
“For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many.”
I’ll never have all the answers, it seems the more answers I do have only lead to further questions. It’s refreshing to know I know the God who knows. The God of adamant love and safety even when life feels risky. My encouragement and challenge to you is to keep dreaming. Keep doing, always in prayer, but never in fear, For as Franklin D. Roosevelt said:
“There is nothing to fear but fear itself.”
It reminds me of a couple verses in the Bible about fear. First, 1 John 4:18 and Luke 12:29.
1 John 4:18 (ESV)
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.
Luke 12:29-30 (ESV)
29 And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. 30 For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them.
God’s got you. He’ll take care of your needs and go above and beyond. He knows and cares. I’ve got endless questions, you’re not alone, but God knows and I pray that gives you peace. What are your dreams? What’s holding you back?